Hey guys! I'm really excited to officially open the YouTube channel for The Life of a Mormon Teen soon! Be watching!
So, this school year, I am going to a new school. And I am really scared. I've been scared about this for a long time, but no matter how unprepared I feel, school is going to start. Next week. So, I've been thinking about this, pondering the situation, mulling it over, playing billions of possible future scenarios in my head, and no matter what, I'm still scared. And, as I've been scared, in the back of my mind I've kept thinking "fear and faith cannot dwell together". I know I need to have faith, but at the same time I just want to wallow in my fear.
But I have made a decision. No longer will I give in to the fear that's plaguing me. Those feelings come from Satan, and I don't want him to rule my life. The adversary knows that I'm no good to the world when I live in fear, so he bombards me with it. But I am going to prove to myself and to the Lord that I am stronger than Satan. I will not be afraid, even though there are so many things for me to be afraid about. I desire to make a difference in this world, so I will.
I really like these words from Elder Neil L. Anderson:
So, this school year, I am going to a new school. And I am really scared. I've been scared about this for a long time, but no matter how unprepared I feel, school is going to start. Next week. So, I've been thinking about this, pondering the situation, mulling it over, playing billions of possible future scenarios in my head, and no matter what, I'm still scared. And, as I've been scared, in the back of my mind I've kept thinking "fear and faith cannot dwell together". I know I need to have faith, but at the same time I just want to wallow in my fear.
But I have made a decision. No longer will I give in to the fear that's plaguing me. Those feelings come from Satan, and I don't want him to rule my life. The adversary knows that I'm no good to the world when I live in fear, so he bombards me with it. But I am going to prove to myself and to the Lord that I am stronger than Satan. I will not be afraid, even though there are so many things for me to be afraid about. I desire to make a difference in this world, so I will.
I really like these words from Elder Neil L. Anderson:
"Fear and faith
cannot coexist in our hearts at the same time. In our days of
difficulty, we choose the road of faith. Jesus said, “Be not afraid,
only believe.”
I will have faith in Jesus that He will help me through this transition, and throughout the rest of my schooling and life. He knows and loves me, and He will take care of me. The Lord promises us in Doctrine and Covenants 88:84:
"And whoso receiveth you, there I will be
also, for I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and
on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels
round about you, to bear you up."
I really love the Lord's promise that He will send angels to help us when we need help. I know this to be true. I have literally felt angels around me in my darkest times. I am so grateful for my wonderful Savior. And I am grateful that I don't need to fear. I love my Savior.
good luck with your YouTube channel! be strong and your time in school will be so much fun! you can do this! @Cameothenovel1 @MilanParkAve
ReplyDeleteHey! Just as I was reading your blog, I was having a flashback of my own past anxiety. I was homeschooled for most of my life and then went into a public High School in a new town. That was some scary stuff! And I remember doing the exact same things that you were describing! :) But I'm proud of you for your decision. It took me the whole year to realize that I didn't have to be afraid. And even then, I was still pretty timid. But yes, I just thought I'd let you know that! :)
ReplyDeleteI hope all goes well on your first day!
Thank you so very much! The first day went better than I could have imagined! This school is nowhere near as scary as I thought it would be! I'm actually really enjoying myself! Thank you for sharing!
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